Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Lori Smith's LiveJournal:

Thursday, August 21st, 2003
12:53 pm	Yeah Baby! <td bgcolor="#000000">Favorite cardtype</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Least favorite cardtype</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Number of times you read the cards in cutesy ways</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your Crainium Mafioso Name</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Da Brain </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your honorary category</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Gangsta Sayz </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Date of your next Crainimatch</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">July 20, 2025</td></tr> Your Crainium Persona by Pylonian Created with quill18's MemeGen! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
2:54 pm	I made this for all my friends! <td bgcolor="#000000">Top or Bottom</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Speed</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Flavor</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Frequency</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Vocals</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr> How do you like it? by bedlamite Created with quill18</a>'s MemeGen! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:31 pm	Okay, I'm here! Thanks to pumkine for the code and thanks to pylonian for the force for me to be here. For those of you who don't know me, RUN, run right now! Okay, for those that have stayed, I am a soon to be 34 year old lesbian (soon to be 34, not soon to be lesbian) going to Oregon State University. I am applying to Ph.d. programs currently with not location in mind of where I want to go, but want to study Sociology of Knowledge. Pylonian...what free will? Love you man. I am single, but have two dogs and two cats, so I pretty much have kids of the non-biped kind. They are my life and I would not change that for the world. I enjoy red wine and cooking. These pleasures are often difficult to fulfill because I hate doing dishes and drinking alone. Go figure. Anyway, enough about me, well because I hate writing about me and would just rather write about what my mind is up to. I am feeling a bit random. I was supposed to go out this morning but got stood up I think. A 9 am phone call was never received for a date to swim in the river. Life goes on. It is not like I don't have a shit load of stuff to do, but really have no motivation to do any of it. I think that my lack of motivation stems from the idea that I am wondering what the hell I am supposed to be doing. I say this with so many things in mind. Would beating the dog stop the dog from getting in the refrigerator and trash when I leave? Would going out on dates bring some sort of unperceived happiness? Why do I feel so much pressure to do things like date or get rid of the dog? Even worse is that each of these things bring such different things to my life. You know, THINGS. My desire to date brings me suffering...not to get too buddhists or anything. I already have the dog and I have no real desire to get rid of the dog...therefore no suffering. Call me crazy, but is this not somewhat backward from how I should be feeling? I love the dog and hate dating! My prospects of women have slowly diminished from four to nil. One turned out to be too depressed and nothing is more unappealing than a depressed sexy person. Two turned out to be straight, but flirts like she's not and quite frankly I'm wondering if she isn't a tad bit psycho. Three is too young, my hopeful 25 year old turned out to be 22, but all that doesn't matter, she stood me up this morning. Four, my forty something prospect, I found out is retired because well, one can only earn so much money in a lifetime and apparently she has reached this limit. She travels around a lot and let's face it, what retired forty something wants to chase a thirty something through academic bullshit. Oh hell, all this is crap, she just intimidates me so I won't ask her out. Back to my original question...why should I desire any prospect at all? Suffering? Oh yes, suffering. I need coffee and food, to replenish my soul to continue on my quest for the ultimate suffering. (2 Comments |Comment on this)